I've been a wife for 11 years, a mother for 10 years, and a an unorganized hot mess for my ENTIRE LIFE.
There was a time that I was proud of my easy-going housekeeping style...but I think it's finally catching up with me and I am just not happy.
I lack discipline and motivation. Yet, when I DO take the time to clean and organize, I feel SO MUCH BETTER. I feel happy. I feel like I accomplished something. I feel like I've done something that shows my family how much I love them.
Sometime within the last few weeks, we sang a hymn at church that pierced my soul..and I've repeatedly gone back to the phrases in the first verse for inspiration...
Today, while the sun shines, work with a will;
Today all your duties with patience fulfill.
Today, while the birds sing, harbor no care;
Call life a good gift; call the world fair.
It's always the small, simple messages that hit me the hardest. It's like a DUH moment, right when you need it, but in a nice way because it's from the Lord.
I have been known to complain endlessly about the messes at my house...yet hardly ever DO anything to eliminate said messes -- by eliminate I don't just mean clean or tidy up, I mean TEACH my children how to keep things clean and how to MAINTAIN cleanliness.
Maintenance is my true weakness. Lack of maintenance is what makes cleaning so overwhelming. EVERYTHING is a project... not just a 15-20 minute tidy-up job...
So, my question friends, is HOW do I learn better habits? I have been lazy and angry about cleaning for so long that I just avoid it and it's definitely NOT something I am proud of.
I have over 100 pins on Pinterest in my "Cleaning/organizing" board -- it's pathetic. I find inspiration and examples of great ideas all over the place - yet can't seem to execute them!
Is there such thing as a cleaning therapist? I mean, sometimes when I watch Hoarders, I secretly wish that those therapists would come to my house -- even though I am not a hoarder...
Ultimately my guilt and shame about this comes down to the fact that at my core, I truly believe that one of the biggest acts of love and service I can show my husband and children is by making our home a clean and comfortable place to be...a place that they LOVE to be. And when I don't LOVE to be in my home, I am betting that they don't either.
Part of this dilemma stems from the fact that we are perpetual renters. I daydream about decorating, renovating, and putting my own personal stamp on our home - yet, because I'm renting, I am extremely limited in what I can do.
I am surrounded by gross flat-paint dirty walls (I have a house full of BOYS - do you think white walls stay clean very long here? NO!) that I ache to paint, but I don't because "who knows how much longer we'll be here" and "why waste the money on decorating a rental?"
Am I a total mental case? Maybe.
Am I the only wife/mom/homemaker out there who struggles with this? No.
So, I am asking for help - yes, I am SOLICITING your advice, tips, experiences, etc. I know many of you are great at organizing and keeping your homes running smoothly... This (and many others!) is an area that I want so badly to change in my life, PERMANENTLY.
Thanks for listening to my rambling!